Some time ago I bought a set of oil pastels. I haven’t really used them, I just bought them ’cause I love the colours. Like, cadmium yellow and cerulean? My sweet Lord! For the same reason, I love flowers. And beautiful textiles. If I had the money, I’d buy reams of silk and wool in every miraculous colour!
Also, I like looking at myself in the mirror. I have pretty good skin (probably ’cause I eat more carrots than a platoon of rabbits), and I like how it looks. I also like looking at pictures of pretty people. I’d do it live if I could, but for some reason, people tend to freak out when you stare at them.
So yeah… I’m shallow. I’ve got no problem admitting it, and I don’t feel ashamed of it, either. And why? Because being shallow is the only way to exist.
What do I mean? Well, just that. The depth of things cannot be known except by studying their surface.
We see what other people think, which groups they belong to, how they feel about themselves, how they live – all very deep things – based on what they wear, how they move, how they look like.
There is no “inner beauty”. I mean, if you cut somebody up, all you end up with is an icky pile of viscera and most likely a dead human. The souls of others are in their words and actions, which are superficial.
That is why the only way to be is to be shallow.
I was thinking about this, and maybe it has implications for that old hack, “show, don’t tell”. Maybe we’re told to abhor telling because it tries to bypass the shallow bit? Showing is all about the surface, where the reflection of the truth lies. To straightaway tell tries to move past the surface, but hey, there’s nothing there! (Except the pancreas, which kinda looks like a dick made of fat. Ew.)
Don’t know if that’s right, but that’s the idea that came to me as I was thinking about my shallowness.
Another thing that relates to writing, however, is far more important.
Many writers seem to have a subconscious pressure to write stuff that is “deep”. You know, to write “intellectual” stuff. To write scintillating text that promulgates complex and original thought, or summat.
They – we, really, since I’m not immune to those pressures – seem to abhor shallow things. They can’t write about giant robots, or knights with blazing swords, or flying dinosaurs that shoot laser. Or, if they do write about those things, they seem low-key apologetic, or at least don’t group themselves with “the serious writers”. (Who the hell are they?)
Here’s the thing though. If you like writing about giant robots, that’s the truth. That is your world. That is where you are meant to be. You like giant robots for a reason.
I don’t know what that reason is, and you may not either, but it’s there. It’s deep inside you. It speaks from your very centre. It says, “This is what I am. These are the things that matter.”
And if it speaks in the language of giant robots, hey, so what? There are tons of languages in the world. That’s one of ’em. It’s by no means inferior to the language of, say, Renaissance art, or Christian mysticism.
So yeah. Be shallow, and write about the things you really like.
Even when those things are robots with drills as big as galaxies.